The Very Reason I don't Want to Die!

I was sleepless last night due to my tummy ache particularly on the side when my kidneys are placed. I am worried now that I maybe having another episode of rejection just Christmas of last year. I pray that I am wrong and that the pain is only caused by me being constipated. I tell you, it is hard being sick almost all the time that I am being tired of being sick! It would be so selfish of me to think that I better die than suffer from health; I need to be strong and positive for my son and husband who needs me....as well as my parents who needs me as well. Plus, I am still too young to die. Some people are afraid to die but I am not...am afraid to leave my family...that is what I am afraid about. So glad that God is always there to help sustain my needs...and with that I am forever grateful to HIM and Jesus!